The social disease

I deleted my Facebook account today. I am getting so sick of the ridicule, hypocriticism, and arrogance that I seem to be contaminated with. I've spent so many years voicing my opinions, making fun of others, speaking my mind, that I've lost sight of what it's like to be a writer. I miss my pen.

This is going to be a very difficult thing for me. Honestly, I'm not quite sure anyone will even read this, and frankly, I hope no one does. I guess this is just for me to read later on, and remember why I did it.

Fuck Facebook

Is it?

Is it really up to us to forgive those who wronged us, or is it up to them to continually remind us of how sorry they are for doing something? If we make the choice to live with someone in our lives who wronged us, shouldn't they make the choice to go out of their way to make us feel more loved than they did in the past? Is it up to me to make that person feel more loved than what I did in the past so they don't have the urge to do it again?

I never realized how unfair love, trust, and forgiveness can be now that I am on the other end... Honestly, I would rather be on your end.

I'm beginning to understand why my father went my entire life without talking to his family. It's one thing to have friends abandon you, talk shit about you, make you feel like you don't deserve to walk the same beautiful earth that they do... But when someone of the same blood does it, it hurts.

We are destined to walk in the same path as the ones that gave us life. As much as we try to make the right decisions, we will falter. I believe the choice to walk the right direction on this path is not decided by the person walking it, but by the people you meet along the way.

There is no worse feeling in the world, than not being able to give
your kids the Christmas they deserve...

And so it begins. The weekend of Bond has arrived. I begin my
adventure...

So I have been telling you all for a while that my Blog is coming
soon. Well, today at work they had me show someone else how to do
this, and I thought that there was no better time than the present.
So.... Captains log, star-date 11.25.2008, a few days before
thanksgiving...

Over the last few weeks at work, they have been laying people off...
Not just one or two, but at least 9 that I can remember... It's a
scary feeling coming into work every day, wondering if it's your last
day. It reminds me of the feeling that I get before I jump into a cold
pool... I don't wish this stress on anyone.

I do however have alot of things to be thankful for this week. I do
have a job. That in itself is amazing in this economy we are going thru.

I am totally looking forward to watching the James Bond and Star Trek
movies back to back to back! AHHHH YEAAAAA! ALL of them starting this
Wednesday at 5:30. That is one of my favorite things to do every
Thanksgiving. I just hope that I can find someone to share it with. My
girlfriend would be a prime candidate, however she is a GIRL, and I
really dont think she would get into it that much. Thank the gods that
I have 3 boys, and they are finally getting to an age where they can
appreciate things like James Bond and Captain Kirk.

Anyway, I will do my best to keep you up to date on what is going on
in my life. I hope you all have a great thanksgiving!!!

It's coming soon